better now

paul and i went out last night. we picked up my pint of ice cream, drove out to the country and parked by the side of the road. we talked, we theorized, we found the good; we basically just spent some much needed one-on-one time together talking without any distractions. i think we're both doing a lot better. 


we're disappointed still, but there's a lot to be happy about as well. he's amazed me with his continued determination to be positive. it's always been something he's struggled with but something seems to have clicked in him in the last few weeks. i'm so impressed and pleased with the changes he's made. it has helped us both out immensely. he's discovered it's possible to be happy, even in the face of really trying circumstances and i've gotten a break from carrying the brunt of the emotional load.


despite the way things have gone down i'm still full of hope and the feeling that all is well and all will be well. really, i feel peaceful and blessed in so many ways right now. i think i kind of knew this wasn't the job for us, but still, that only helps to temper the disappointment so much. but, if this is a test--and i suspect that it is--we are ready to meet the demands this time. we are ready to forge through and redouble our efforts to prove our faith and obedience.


thank you so much to everyone who's been there for us, with us, praying for us, cheering for us, encouraging us. it's times like these that really teach you what is important and help you to recognize your blessings, some that you may have taken for granted in the past. we love you all!