30 days

i made it.


basically.


i had a couple "oops" moments, but i was definitely far more good than not.


and it was successful.


in more ways than one.


i lost 7 pounds, yay.


and my sugar cravings have dramatically decreased, double yay.


and i'm finding it easier to "just say no".

what is it about us that makes us want things simply because we can't or shouldn't have it? last night, my last night of this thing, we were invited to a ward member's house for a getting-to-know-you kind of thing. they provided ice cream and multiple topping options. i wanted some. i thought. looking back today, i don't know that i really did. i think it was more the i-want-it-because-i-can't-have-it situation. because i didn't really feel like i was missing out. i'm not even that much of an ice cream person.


today, i did indulge and have one of my favorites for breakfast: chocolate chip pancakes. and they were yummy. and i didn't feel in the least bit guilty.


but as i was looking at some of the (few) things we have in the house that i can now eat because my sugar fast is officially over i repeatedly thought "yeah, that kind of looks good . . . but not really. i really only want a bite or two." 


i was so excited to be done, but i'm much more excited to discover that even after giving myself permission to eat sugar again, there's not much desire. 


and that is the best thing that's come out of this.


i think i'm going to go 30 more days.


well, kind of.


i'm not going to say "i can't" because that in itself makes me want it when i don't really even want it.


but i'm going to limit what i say yes to. maybe one or two treats a week.


because i feel good.


and i think my body is in a weight loss groove.


and i want to take full advantage of that.