i had paul take the puppies and gigi to the pound. i feel really bad, but i just couldn't handle anything else right now. my stress levels are so high. i wish we could've kept them and watched them grow until we could find homes for them, but i just hit a wall today. a huge, overwhelming wall that feels not just like it's in my way, but that it's actually falling on me. i guess paul didn't get the job because it's been 3 weeks and they still haven't called. guess it's back to square one. sigh.