Friday, November 4, 2011

conflicting emotions

i'm torn between impatience to hurry up and do this move thing, get it over with and begin our next adventure and gratitude that we get to stay through the holidays and enjoy our last minimal-traveling thanksgiving and christmas with family.

hmm, i guess i haven't really announced formally what's going on with us and the decisions we've come to. after a lot of fasting and prayer we've come to the conclusion that we are supposed to move to southern Oregon. i don't know why, and i don't know what to expect there. i do know that winter isn't a good time for construction and that we have no viable job prospects as of this point. but i also know that i've felt very strongly from the beginning that the time frame we were looking at was about 6 months (and that was back in July, so January). and, i also know the answers i've received are solid and based in my understanding of the gospel. and the most important thing i know: if that's where the Lord wants to send us/needs us we will somehow, some way, be taken care of financially (and in every other way, but let's face it, that's the most immediate need). 

it occurred to me that by going to oregon paul and i will be the only members of our family not near family. there's something sad about that. on the other hand, i'm humbled by the fact that Heavenly Father must have a lot of faith in us to send us so far from our main support systems. right? lol well, that's what i'll choose to believe anyway.